Wednesday, August 28, 2013


Well, AF arrived yesterday, a bit early but not too bad. It caught me a bit by surprise and I was a bit unnerved by how nervous it made me feel. I was also out of the healthy, no-carb groceries I will need so that meant a morning running errands with a fractious E, who is now 20 months old and NOT a very patient toddler.

Picked up a trusty Ovulation Predictor Kit (OPK) which I will start at about day 5 of my cycle just to be safe. I'm excited for this new adventure.

Working on a couple of posts about my life as a stay-at-home mom, what I've learned and how I've adjusted. Hopefully will post those later this week.

Riveting post, I know. Thanks for reading anyway. Smiles your way.

Saturday, August 24, 2013

Last time I was here...

The last time I was here, I was all like, "Okay, time to try for another baby!" And I was all, "Time to lose some weight!" And then, "Yay, I'm losing weight!"

I was ready. I had a plan. I had a SCHEDULE.

And then, you guessed it, life got in the way.

It started with a vacation, and not a relaxing, beach-y, pina-colada-y type vacation. Oh, no. My HUSBAND planned this one, which meant it was more of a cross country drive-y, sleeping in a tent-y, cooking on a campstove-y and hiking 10 miles a day-y type trip. It Ish. I enjoy scenery, and rock climbing, and hiking, and stuff. But when after five hours of hiking on slick rock I find myself baking in a breezeless valley with the sun beating down on me as I trudge through ankle-deep sand...I start composing very, very profane songs in my head about my husband and the fact that we aren't on the beach instead.

But I digress.

AF arrived at just the wrong time - right before our trip. And I didn't really feel like trying to pee on an OPK out in the middle of the Utah desert. So we delayed a month.

Then a birthday trip for a friend came up, and we have a very drink-y group, and I wanted to imbibe, so...another delay.

Then ANOTHER birthday trip for ANOTHER friend...same story.

Then it was almost my birthday, and I wanted to be able to celebrate (I swear I don't ACTUALLY drink that much) what's one more month?

After that, I put my foot down. No more delays, or excuses. There was always going to be one more fun event that I wanted to delay for. 

And then I got mono. 

Which turned out, weeks later, to not be mono?

It is a looong story and even I am still super confused.

Anyway. I am finally feeling better. Mr. M. and I are on the same page about trying again, the page that reads, "Well, it will not be super fun to have a newborn and a 2-year-old but we know we need to try early if we want another kid so HERE WE GO."

In summary: last "active" BCP will be taken tonight. (Remember this post from the last go-round?) Once I hit CD1, I will switch to no carbs again for two weeks, and then healthy carbs during the TWW. I am taking my raw prenatal vitamins again, three times a day - I read that doing that helps keep a more steady level of nutrients in your system, which makes sense to me.

I have re-visited many of my friendly neighborhood infertility books to remind me of the whys and hows of my high FSH.

I consulted with Dr. A., my awesome OBGYN, and she told me to "try away," since I had already proven her wrong once. She was very supportive of trying again ASAP.

She also advised me to call her if I am not pregnant after three months or at the very most six months, so she can get me over to the RE. 

I'm not sure what I am feeling right now, except excited and hopeful. The last time we started this journey, I was sure I was looking at months of fertility treatments and disappointment, so to get pregnant naturally was a big surprise. This time around I know that I can get pregnant naturally (or at least, could), so I find myself a bit more hopeful. I don't know if this is a good thing or not. I have never had to deal with a negative cycle before so I am unsure about how I will deal with it. 

But I'm back. I'll be blogging about trying again. I hope to re-establish some of the connections that were so meaningful to me for such a very long time. 

Here goes nothin'...