I was ready. I had a plan. I had a SCHEDULE.
And then, you guessed it, life got in the way.
It started with a vacation, and not a relaxing, beach-y, pina-colada-y type vacation. Oh, no. My HUSBAND planned this one, which meant it was more of a cross country drive-y, sleeping in a tent-y, cooking on a campstove-y and hiking 10 miles a day-y type trip. It was...fun. Ish. I enjoy scenery, and rock climbing, and hiking, and stuff. But when after five hours of hiking on slick rock I find myself baking in a breezeless valley with the sun beating down on me as I trudge through ankle-deep sand...I start composing very, very profane songs in my head about my husband and the fact that we aren't on the beach instead.
But I digress.
AF arrived at just the wrong time - right before our trip. And I didn't really feel like trying to pee on an OPK out in the middle of the Utah desert. So we delayed a month.
Then a birthday trip for a friend came up, and we have a very drink-y group, and I wanted to imbibe, so...another delay.
Then ANOTHER birthday trip for ANOTHER friend...same story.
Then it was almost my birthday, and I wanted to be able to celebrate (I swear I don't ACTUALLY drink that much)...so what's one more month?
After that, I put my foot down. No more delays, or excuses. There was always going to be one more fun event that I wanted to delay for.
And then I got mono.
Which turned out, weeks later, to not be mono?
It is a looong story and even I am still super confused.
Anyway. I am finally feeling better. Mr. M. and I are on the same page about trying again, the page that reads, "Well, it will not be super fun to have a newborn and a 2-year-old but we know we need to try early if we want another kid so HERE WE GO."
In summary: last "active" BCP will be taken tonight. (Remember this post from the last go-round?) Once I hit CD1, I will switch to no carbs again for two weeks, and then healthy carbs during the TWW. I am taking my raw prenatal vitamins again, three times a day - I read that doing that helps keep a more steady level of nutrients in your system, which makes sense to me.
I have re-visited many of my friendly neighborhood infertility books to remind me of the whys and hows of my high FSH.
I consulted with Dr. A., my awesome OBGYN, and she told me to "try away," since I had already proven her wrong once. She was very supportive of trying again ASAP.
She also advised me to call her if I am not pregnant after three months or at the very most six months, so she can get me over to the RE.
I'm not sure what I am feeling right now, except excited and hopeful. The last time we started this journey, I was sure I was looking at months of fertility treatments and disappointment, so to get pregnant naturally was a big surprise. This time around I know that I can get pregnant naturally (or at least, could), so I find myself a bit more hopeful. I don't know if this is a good thing or not. I have never had to deal with a negative cycle before so I am unsure about how I will deal with it.
But I'm back. I'll be blogging about trying again. I hope to re-establish some of the connections that were so meaningful to me for such a very long time.
Here goes nothin'...